Poetry: I Hate Your Eyes

I barely remember writing this poem.  I don't know where it came from but I think it shows the confusion that mental health issues can cause.  I don't think it's about anyone specific in my life but rather life in general.  Maybe it's even how I feel about myself.

I Hate Your Eyes

I hate your eyes
When they look at me that way
I hate your smile
That has burned its way into my brain
I hate the things
I always put myself through
I hate these feelings
I feel no matter what you do

You pull me in
Entrance me
Then you pull away
Become a memory
You play with my mind
Time after time
That's why
I hate your eyes

I hate your eyes
The way they stare right through me
I hate my mind
And all the things you've made it believe
I hate the thoughts
That keep me up late at night
I hate myself
For letting you control my life